I've always been a very busy person. I mean, extremely busy. In high school, I was part of too many clubs to name (even headed up a few), maintained good grades, worked a part time job, did some babysitting on the side, participated in a few of the school plays (those required a LOT of rehearsal time), and was even active in my church a few nights a week. On top of that, I had a few close groups of friends who i did activities with. Whew. I was a busy bee, and I loved it!
Then I met the love of my life and my pace in life slowed down. I went off to college and didn't do nearly as much. I still worked, maintained good grades, did some community service projects, made new lifelong friends, but wasn't nearly as pressed for time. Instead, I dedicated a lot of my time and energy to fostering a good relationship with my soon to be husband, instead of all the busy activities I had done before.
When I got married, both Husband and I worked part time and went to school full time. We attended church, but weren't heavily involved. However, it still felt like we had a lot to do between work and school.
Before having Baby, I never thought I could be a stay at home mom. I had never understood what moms who stayed home actually did with their time. Well, now I know. What did I ever do with my time before I had a baby? How in the world did I manage all of my previous responsibilities?
Since having Baby, even though I stopped working and hardly ever go out, it still feels like time is flying by. What I do now revolves around her; when she eats, when she sleeps, when she plays. But with Baby, I go at a much slower pace, stopping to smell the flowers so to speak.
I cherish every moment I have with my baby girl. She is full of new surprises every day. I know she recognizes me and can identify my voice. She can tell if I am near her or not. She loves to "talk" to me in her own little way. She fits perfectly in the crook of may arm, or laying her head on my shoulder. I love it when she relaxes against me and peacefully drifts off to sleep. I don't want to move a muscle because I'm afraid it will ruin the moment.
I now know what it's like to be a stay at home mom, and I love it with every part of my being.